Alright...

This weekend, i spoke to my exfiancee, on the phone, for the first time in almost a year, and thing seem cool. she's going through a breakup and very much sounds like i did when she broke up with me a year ago. it breaks my heart.

the facts are that she's lost 10lbs and is on medication for depression now, and the guy doesnt seem to think she's serious and thinks she's faking. i want to fuckin' kill him for it. no one should treat a lady like that, much less one that i love more than anything in the world... fuck that shit.

i am SOOO in friend mode right now. i just want to scoop her up and tell her everything will be ok. if i could protect her for the rest of her life and her not feel an ounce of pain, i would.

'i want to put a bullet between the eyes of every panda who wouldnt screw to save it's own species, i want to dump oil tankers on all of those foreign beaches that i'll never see, i want to breathe smoke, i want to destroy somethign beautiful.'

that's how angry i am right now.