projectnova

I feel there has been a disturbance in the force. like, it's wierd. i've officially come to grip with some stuff i needed to come to grip with, so i feel better, but outta no where my ehart sinks and i feel like slitting my wrists, like THAT sorta sadness, i've felt it before, many times, now i have no reason for it.

Now, i'm not religious at all, nor do i think that 'The Force' is real, but sometimes i gotta wonder, is it me feeling someone else's sadness? if i it, then i wanna just make everything better for them. that feeling sucks. and that's what i really think it is.

i could be crazy though.

Anyway, stuff feels ok right now, i'm trying to get my life sorted out. Moving back home, so i can save money and get a new car, get back inot school, stuff like that. sounds like a plan, actually. makes me feel better.

and i dont feel alone anymore, and i realized that all i've really been doing is bitching and verlooking the friends who didnt seem to really matter.

so yeah, i feel better. werd.

and Dia is the freakin' shit, and Chloe and Elisa too.