I saw on the Weather channel that taste of Chicago started today....

It reminded me of my first year in Chicago... I moved there for a girl... I went to the taste of Chicago alone, with out that girl.... a lot of things happened after that.... a lot of things I'm embarrassed to tell people...

but then again, I found a stregnth in me that I didn't know I had.


I guess I'm different now... I try not to treat people the way I had been.

I never saw that girl again ... but I had a dream once where, I was somewhere doing something important.... and she came up to talk to me, (my brother was with me) and I ignored her..... my brother, in the dream, asked me who she was.... and I said "I have no idea"


p.s. appearently somepeople were stabbed at the C.O.C. show in tampa last night, one is dead, two others are serious.... I would've been there ya know, come hell or high water..... I wonder.....


p.s.s. I cannot have pictures of myself having a good time... appearently any picture of me smiling makes me look like an idiot.....

p.s.s.s. I feel a journey of self discovery...i'm lookin' for you baby ducks..... one more thing.... today! here in the present, on the way to work... i almost ran into a deer, squirrel, cardinal, owl, and regular bird.... something was up this morning at 530am