productiondiva

I finally got a call back from my OB yesterday. I have cervical cancer although I have been in "remission" now for over a year and a half. Everything has been going fine since and the dr even told me that I could start trying to have a baby. I am getting married in the fall and we plan on starting to try sometime next spring. But back in october, I missed a period. It was weird, because I have NEVER ever done that. So I took a home preg test and it was negative. I waited it out and by November, I still hadn't had a period. I went in to see the dr and she did a pee test which was negative. She also did a pap and HPV/cancer screen just to be on the safe side. She said it takes 4-6 weeks to get results back and mailed out (or called to you if they are bad) and if I hadn't heard from them by the end of Jan, everything was fine. She said if I didn't start bleeding after the holidays and New Year, call her back and she would probably start me on a quick acting hormone to induce a period. Fine and dandy right?

This next part is pretty graphic, so out of love for my male friends, and a few female ones, who may have made it to this point, I apologize. Skip down to the sad face if you want to....


Well, Christmas weekend, I started bleeding. A LOT! I started hemorraging the day after Christmas which was scary enough but there were also big clots. Double scary. I called my dr and her nurse told me the amount of blood to watch for in terms of needing to go straight the ER. She asked me if I had done a pregnacy test in Dec. I said, no, the dr never said anything about needing to. She made me an appt for the following day. I went in and she took some samples of the clots and checked everything out. She told me she thought I was having a miscarriage and she would get back to me about it for sure. Well she did, and I was. Which sucks, because:
a. I want a baby badly. not that we want one right now, in fact we don't. but i can not wait to be a mom
b. we were not trying to get pregnant. in fact we are SUPER SUPER careful not to. Double protection at all times.
c. due to the cancer, they told me my chances of getting pregnant easily were going to be much less. so it was kind of exciting news that i had gotten pregnant with NO effort.

So anyhow, she told me to wait things out and if the bleeding didn't slow down in a few days, she would do a d&c to help stop it. I was thinking... no way to I want to deal with having tools shoved past my cervix again thank you. I have been there and done that and it is not fun. Althought this time they would use anesthesia, so I guess it is better than last time when they only used a bit of topical numbing to do my uterine biopsy. You could hear my screaming in the waiting room and I have a pretty good threshold for pain. So the bleeding slowed down on it own... but it is still going on. Normal period level flow for me, not too heavy but not spotting either. Fun times right?


So I called her back and played phone tag this week with her nurse. She finally got me yesterday. This is where it gets fun kids. She told me the lab lost half of my pap and stuff they ran in November and it was never finished. The results they did get were inconclusive due to not having the entire report however it looked like there were cancer cells present. I said "Uh, it is Feb. How come no one told me this sooner????" seh gave the whole "blah blah, it is the labs fault" speel. Then she says "Well I will need to shcedule you to come back in to get re-pap'd and all that. The first opening I have would be March 2nd." Uh hello.... it is Feb 6th. I have been bleeding now for 46 days. Doesn't this concern anyone but me????? SO I said "Um, I really would like to be seen sooner than that. I don't think I could handle waiting until March given my previous hx. You just told me it is possible my cancer is back and you want me to sit and stew on that for a month!?!?!?!? No way. I want to be seen tomorrow!" She was like "Well, there is no way the dr can see you tomorrow. But I can get you in to see the midwife, who can do the tests and check out the blood flow. She can discuss it all with the dr. and we can get back to you." I said ok.