Well it seems like i should probably fill in a new one of these babies and let people know whats been going on. I believe it was 2004 when i started (feel free to check my original account Carpe_diem) and i kinda went offline around 2005 until i popped back on here and ended up getting very confused for a long time about account details etc, and ended up making this account 
Anyway the last year has been an odd one. I managed to get myself dumped by the woman i thought i was going to spend my life with, and as such fell into a bit of a spiral of the drugs and the depression, flunked out of my final year at uni, and generally wasnt too great.
Anyway, im slowly getting myself back on track. I realised i was blaming myself to heavily for something that wasnt my fault, it takes two people to start and end a relationship. I also realised that there isnt just one person out there for everyone and that i will just have to pick myself up and dust myself off. That said i would still say i am in a bit of an odd place.
Anyway im back at Uni now, im actuallyt going to seminars...took my first book out and everything the other day, you should be proud.
Anyway Reading is a bit of a lonely place at the moment, living with a load of strangers who dont seem to be into much thats cool, and they are all foreign which doesnt help as they seem to pair off a little (two are chineese and 2 are french). Most of my friends are in london now, so thats a bit lame. Ahh well, i survivie.
So anyway, im hopefully off to the Army after uni, one more year and then hopefully i will be off to Sandhurst and all that will entail.
In the mean time, i was remembering the friends and the fun i used to have on here, and since i have so much free time i figured i would head back here and try and build some bridges.
Ash
Anyway the last year has been an odd one. I managed to get myself dumped by the woman i thought i was going to spend my life with, and as such fell into a bit of a spiral of the drugs and the depression, flunked out of my final year at uni, and generally wasnt too great.
Anyway, im slowly getting myself back on track. I realised i was blaming myself to heavily for something that wasnt my fault, it takes two people to start and end a relationship. I also realised that there isnt just one person out there for everyone and that i will just have to pick myself up and dust myself off. That said i would still say i am in a bit of an odd place.
Anyway im back at Uni now, im actuallyt going to seminars...took my first book out and everything the other day, you should be proud.
Anyway Reading is a bit of a lonely place at the moment, living with a load of strangers who dont seem to be into much thats cool, and they are all foreign which doesnt help as they seem to pair off a little (two are chineese and 2 are french). Most of my friends are in london now, so thats a bit lame. Ahh well, i survivie.
So anyway, im hopefully off to the Army after uni, one more year and then hopefully i will be off to Sandhurst and all that will entail.
In the mean time, i was remembering the friends and the fun i used to have on here, and since i have so much free time i figured i would head back here and try and build some bridges.
Ash
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But Happy Birthday anyways!
I hope it was lovely.
xo