well i guess it's about time for an update. soo much going on with the holidays and my birthday and friends in town, its been pretty crazy. i still cant help but feel a little lonely... for the first time ina long time, i feel like i dont really have a best friend, someone whos there in a heartbeat, someone who knows everything in your life, someone who gets me through tough times. i love all my friends, i really do, but i have a feeling of emptiness because i dont feel extremely close to any of them right now. i usually have that one person and shes basically mia, so im left with a bunch of close friends and aquintances (sp?).
(she's not even on sg but i feel the need to write this)
SPOILERS! (Click to view)Dear Linzie,
it's been over a month since we've even spoken and i'd be lying if i said i didnt miss you. it's soo strange to go from texting/talking/myspacing every single day to nothing at all. i'm not entirely sure why we've gotten to this point we are now. i know you were dissappointed that i couldnt come to see you at school before the holidays began because i was low on $$ but instead postponed it but i hate to think this is all because of that. and when you came home for thanksgiving, i felt like a those needy girlfriends i despise, calling you everyday and repeatedly getting blown off. until it was time for you to go back and thats when the no talking began. ive wanted to reach out soo many times but being childish it about it, i blame you for all this and say im gonna blow you off just like youve done to me. i guess the final straw of realizing you no longer see us as best friends would be my birthday. against everything in me i sent you an invite to my bday in hopes youd come but ultimatly knowing id only be dissappointed and i was right. not only did you not show, i didnt even get a call/text for birthday wishes. i dont really know what else to say, expect i'm sorry if i did something i was unaware off, but mostly im sorry you look at our friendship as disposable.
Tricia
well back to the last week or so. aside from everything, i have had an amazing time with the people who do seem to care and always be there. lots of bar nights, waaay too much drinking, and lots of kodak moments. i know i've only just turned 22 but as far as drinking goes, i really wanna cool it down. i feel like theres no medium for me anymore. its either one beer or completely wasted, having to have drive home with friends and leave my car at the bar. its no longer all that fun for me... and i know i know, i say this now and ill probably continue in my ways for a bit longer but i do want to slowly make a change...
wow, this is the longest blog ive had in awhile. it quite possibly will go unread by anyone but i feel a little better.
and it wouldnt be complete without some pictures (just a few so you get the idea, if you wanna see more, check out my myspace)-
(sorry if they are huge, didnt resize them)
out @ the crofoot -
party bus for jade's bday
Birthday celebration in rochester -
bday @ the post
new years eve -
Happy New Year Everyone! 
