prettyawful

I'm so burnt out. My body feels like jelly and not in a good way. The only time I like to feel like jelly is after a pleasureful, mounting, yet almost painful orgasm_ which I will have you know, I found out I could produce all on my own the other day... not as fun without a witness tho. I still miss the my man's hands.... urgh.

I have been painting so much and drawing so much. My energy has gone to shit and it shows in my work. I need a break, a long break free of stress and missing people and drama. I want a big feathery bed, soft and mushy after a night of drinks in loud dim light Chicago bars and shit talking with friends. I want to stumble home drunk laughing with my man's hand in mine and his lips kissing my neck, the whole way to my door all the way down my street. I want him to be uncontainable once we step inside, pushing me against the front door's backside. Pushing up my dress, breathing hard, squeezing my tits, kissing, licking and using his hands. I want him to take my clothes off, push me over to the bed while undoing his shirt's buttons and unzipping his pants. No fancy shit, just kissing moaning and fucking... then more fancy fucking later. On top. Me on top, riding. Then sleep, in his arms. That's all I want. To fall asleep in his arms after grinding him senseless, maybe quivering a little _haha.

Forget this Ivy League school and countless paintings every week. I need a goddamn break and that sounds like the perfect one! Do I really have to wait a whole month added to the two already past for this to come true ? I guess finishing this program and going home to my soft kushy bed will be reward enough. I'll have my own warm steaming shower and sleep for hours. I'll be so happy not to be working everyday, being alone wont matter for another two weeks. That way I'll be ready for when he does come home. .....




This is me being SO over this goddamn dorm room.............


Anywho...

AWFUL luVz u