What the fuck, I'm angry. Please give me some attention 
I actually had a really good day today. I hung out with all my friends and I am now getting ready to go downtown and see even more of my favorite people at a gallery opening and have a few drinks. This time I get to dress up and look real pretty too! I lady friends, Martha and Lucy, are gunna get all sexy too!
I spent today looking around for a promise ring, but I found nothing. I feel like all I do is talk about Andy with the girls. It's kind of annoying I bet. They told me everything is going to be more fun with him around but he's not so get over and let's have fun. I see their point but still it's not going to be as much fun... ....
I was a little upset when i got home tho cause he also didn't respond to the song I sent him the other day or comment. I guess that's ok tho... cuz he is really busy and I don't want to annoy him. I just, I just don't know. I wonder if he sits there and thinks about me all day too. I wish when we did talk there wasn't this looming cloud of stress and tension. That might be my fault too. I've stressed and crazy lately, but now I have the girls to talk to! I think things will get better soon!
You know, I have this irrational thought in my head like why isn't he calling me all the time too (even tho he can't), why doesn't he do this any more , why doesn't he do that any more and I put so much pressure on him it makes me want to pop, I can only imagine what he feels. And then I keep pushing cause I feel bad and I want to fix it, I want it all to be ok and I am just so terrified he will leave me. .... .... .... yes, I have issues. But he's promised backwards and forwards he never would just stop liking me one day and leave like others do or have. I know its true, that he loves me. And then I get really excited because Andy loves me! Oh my gawd! Andy loves me hahaha! And I think I am so lucky. And it's true, he isn't here but I can still have fun and he will come back to me... and then we will even more happy haha. I am so nerdy, please don't judge.
~Awful
I actually had a really good day today. I hung out with all my friends and I am now getting ready to go downtown and see even more of my favorite people at a gallery opening and have a few drinks. This time I get to dress up and look real pretty too! I lady friends, Martha and Lucy, are gunna get all sexy too!
I spent today looking around for a promise ring, but I found nothing. I feel like all I do is talk about Andy with the girls. It's kind of annoying I bet. They told me everything is going to be more fun with him around but he's not so get over and let's have fun. I see their point but still it's not going to be as much fun... ....
I was a little upset when i got home tho cause he also didn't respond to the song I sent him the other day or comment. I guess that's ok tho... cuz he is really busy and I don't want to annoy him. I just, I just don't know. I wonder if he sits there and thinks about me all day too. I wish when we did talk there wasn't this looming cloud of stress and tension. That might be my fault too. I've stressed and crazy lately, but now I have the girls to talk to! I think things will get better soon!
You know, I have this irrational thought in my head like why isn't he calling me all the time too (even tho he can't), why doesn't he do this any more , why doesn't he do that any more and I put so much pressure on him it makes me want to pop, I can only imagine what he feels. And then I keep pushing cause I feel bad and I want to fix it, I want it all to be ok and I am just so terrified he will leave me. .... .... .... yes, I have issues. But he's promised backwards and forwards he never would just stop liking me one day and leave like others do or have. I know its true, that he loves me. And then I get really excited because Andy loves me! Oh my gawd! Andy loves me hahaha! And I think I am so lucky. And it's true, he isn't here but I can still have fun and he will come back to me... and then we will even more happy haha. I am so nerdy, please don't judge.
~Awful
I do think about you all day. Truly.
I'm not on facebook much right now, and I'm sorry I don't have a song to send you right now.
I'm pretty busy. I am stressed. I am tired. I haven't been sleeping well since crit week.
I am totally out of energy. As soon as I have some time to relax, I promise I'll try to calm down and focus on you more. But I'm fucking dying right now. Gimme till at least monday. AT LEAST.
And I'll try to see what I can do. If I can get some free time.
I'm sorry I worry you so much.
But I love you. Lots.