preacher255

It seems I am socially awkward no matter what I do. I have a replica of Spider-man's suit painted on my chest right now, somehow this actually alienates me more. One girl actually scoffed in my face, as if my alliegance to the comic icon was offensive. Though it was probably b/c I'm not 100 pounds of pure hippy or emo that turned her nose up. So seriously, is there something wrong with me? Do people dislike me b/c I work out and it shows? Do people find offense at my affiliation with a culture that isn't usually filled by people who like the outside?

I must have some kind of flaw apparent to everyone else but me. It's strange, I have a pretty good self-image but I have no confidence with people, especially girls. Is there an honorable, non-embarassing way to court the ladies/ "put your self out there?" Maybe I worry to much. Maybe I don't worry enough.

So about that post I've been promising, its full length retelling isn't going to happen. Basically there was a kissing auction to benefit huricane Katrina victims that I offered myself up for. A boy bid on me for 15 bucks and won so I had to kiss him in front of the school. Just tonight actually the girl who ran the wall thanked me for doing it despite the fact that I specifically told her I wouldn't. She said I was really chill for doing so. Hm, chill huh? If that's the best compliment I can get from a girl at this school I guess I should take it. Is it possible that I'm incompatible with every girl at this school? Is it feasible that I am destined to be, in one way or another, incompatible with all girls? Anyway, I have pics from that night. There are literally thousands of subteranean species who are more likely to see the light of day before those do.

Well, so much for my bi-montly angsty post. Man, what is fucking wrong with me?