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so i was at a friends tonight, speculating what might be the cause of her computer breakdown and i saw a book on the shelf. several books, actually, that i wanted to read. Awhile back I got into medical thrillers, mostly by robin cook. so i asked about one of them that i hadn't read and ended up leaving with a completely different book. 'raising atlantis' by thomas greanias. which has nothing to do with medicine.

i got home and watched an episode or two of tng and started reading. a dozen pages in and i was hooked. and so i just sat around reading all evening long... moving from one end of the bed to the other... one chair to another, getting comfortable.. getting uncomfortable and moving someplace to get comfortable again. and now i'm down..

good read. it was like a 7 hour movie, where i get to construct the visuals myself... well the ones the author left out. and to think that it pulled me away from all that is picard and enterprise-ish...

so now.. hmm.. i think i'm going to lay in bed and stare at the ceiling and think about stuff until i fall asleep.

as far as i know, i still have a job.. but what if.... so it's another day of filling out applications online and sending my resume places... and geek squad... i wish i still had the contact info i had before... i'm sure i could get right in for an interview. a friend of mine said he knows a supervisor at direct tv too... it wouldn't be installation.. it would be support... but eh... i bet they don't make you spend your mornings in a refrigerated cell.... i'd love to findf a legit work at home job... no envelopes... no pay upfront money laundering sort of thing... just like tech support from home.. why can't i do that? and why am i still not a+ certified? and why do all the jobs i want require a damned 2 or 4 year degree... wtf... i'm too poor to go to college..

but besides that... i have a lot to think about... more than the good read too... kind of want to do some soul searching... like writing in my journal, but not...i feel like dreaming tonight.. and i want to remember it when i wake up this time..