pratt_stevens

So what's new with me?

let's see... I finally got moved in to my new/old place. Moved back to my old apt in the middle of nowhere. It's working ok so far.. it's quiet and boring, but sometimes that's just what the dr. ordered if ya know what I mean.

I need to find a home for my dog. He's still at the old place, but I think I got someone to take him, I just have to coordinate a time that I can take the dog over to his place.

I spent a good portion of the weekend in the hospital again this weekend. My temperature got up to around 103 on saturday night.. I was hallucinating and shit. They gave me an IV and some morphine and it got my temperature down to normal. I'm not really sure if I should've taken the morphine and had they explained what all they were giving me, I'd have probably refused, but since my dr. knows that I'm a recovering addict/alcoholic, I figured that he'd ask before giving me such a thing unless it was truly necessary. They also told me that I needed to go see my other doctor this week to have some more tests ran on my liver because things weren't looking so good in that department..

I went to see Social Distortion on Friday night. They were amazing.. I had a great time. Saw Lex there. She was with one of my friends whom I hadn't seen in ages. That was pretty cool.

My girlfriend broke up with me (again) tonight. I could feel it coming for hours.. maybe days.. it seems as though she's been trying to pick fights.. and she does know which buttons to push to get a rise out of me.. I didn't buy into it, so it then led into "you did this and that" as well as "you never do this.. and I don't feel appreciated" and when I asked for specific examples she continued spouting off a bunch of crap that was very loosly based on the truth and most of which is pretty deep into my past.. so I don't want to fight.. and I'm not going to.. so I start to leave.. she tells me if I leave now she's never going to speak to me again... so I sit down and ask her what she wants to talk about... then the shit starts again.. 5 minutes later she asks me why I'm still there.. and I say "because you said if I left you'd never speak to me again" to which she replies "well maybe that's what I wanted"

sheesh.. so I leave.. and tell her no I won't bring the clothes that she left in my washer down to her house, she can come get them.. she chases me down the street to appologize for being a bitch and follows that up with "I still don't want to date you anymore.. I don't know what I want... blah blah blah"

now wouldn't it have been easier to just say that in the first place instead of starting a bunch of shit and trying to make me hate you??

so other than that, I'm doing just fine...