pottsie

hi

sunday afternonon, a friend's over playing "rez" on ps2. ever played it? probably the most blatantly drug targeted computer game i have ever seen.

it was thrust into my hands at a party last night by a rather eccentric english friend of mine "geezer-tom" with the words " you have to take and play this," and he was right. its crazy. its essentially the most peaking thing i have seen, i almost want to not play it and leave til one day when i really need after a big evening. hard to describe but lets just say when you shoot it makes the sound a 909 snare drum and each target hit make a noise in rhythm with the techno music b-g and the end of each level is rewards with a drum roll and swirly visuals. trippy

am confused as to whats going on with me and my ex. the main problem being i can't seem to stop calling her my ex, and don't really want to. i just go through such extremes of wanting her incredibly badly, feeling in love, to panicing and being scared to have her in my life... it also seems as soon as we start having sex we stop talking and communicating... i dunno been here to many times. i'm like bart in the episode where lisa electrifys a cupcake and he keeps getting shocked again and again until the he can't even look at a cupcake... very deep analogy... i'll work on that.

photo i took riding across the bridge the other day. i put a bunch of night ones in my pics folder. i took hundreds of them with plans to make some kind of cool experimental film installation thing to go with some kind of clicky soundscape but.... i got a job instead