postmodernsleaze

so indeed lots has taken place lately. naw, i lie.

i lost my job. which is HUGE. i can't even believe i am actually jobless, it's so peculiar. my company decided 2 downsize and so many fine employees got the boot. i got a purdy decent severence package but it frightens me wat the hell i would do when and if that shit runs out!!! so, job hunting it is, all day everydamnday. boring and mentally draining.
please think positive 4 me.

then w/ the boys.
boy #1 turned out 2 be a real winner and by that i mean is so lonely it's saddens me beyond belief. he text messages me the most sweet things but i can't deal with a sad/sheltered/shy boy that behaves in such a manner. i just can't and won't. so he was pretty upset when i explained my position and wouldn't just let it be. i felt bad and offered 2 hang out w/ him here and there. i feel even worse about that tho because i only half meant it. it's hard 2 chill w/ someone u know likes u more than "friends".

boy #2 is out 2 sea but comes home every weekend so we should still be seeing eachother. i do like him. i admit it.

then there's this other guy i met and he and i hit it off right off the bat. he's so fab i felt like i was head over heels and 4 me that's rare. but we have different views when it comes to ocassional drug use and such so i don't know if that means no more he and i. we kinda left pissy at eachother the other night. i shall call him and see if he is done simmering.

my son's b-day party is saturday and he is so stoked about it. i thought of tons of fun games to play and we're gonna order pizza and have rambunctious boy typea things going on---- should be insane.

welp, that should do it fer me. hopefully next update i won't be unemployed!!