postmodernsleaze

i am bummed out.
today i feel like i got the shaft.

this is wat happened:
my good good friend was planning on going 2 ireland for 2 weeks in december. she was going because her sister's (also my good friend) boyfriend lives out there and she is going out for a month. she thought it'd be a great idea 2 have her along as well. well i guess she "changed her mind" so they had this huge blow up awhile back and it came down to my friend not getting a refund from hotwire (duh) but she got something like a partial credit w/ american airlines. i cheered her up and was being silly and sarcastic so she suggested we plan a trip her and i 4 new years!! i was stoked!! we even checked out fares and hotels for new york, san fran and new orleans. well she decided to make up w/ her ex and now she and him are going away. and she might not even be back 4 new years which makes me crazy sad the thought of her not being w/ me that night. so i feel a little left out.

like chicks maybe don't come before dicks which is so lame

then my dad is piss ass drunk all the time now and is kinda disturbing 2 me. but that doesn't stop him from pointing out my faults. dickhole.
he just left right now 2 go cheat on his girlfreind. hu. way 2 go dad.
then 2 just make matter worse i got stood up tonight.
i was going out w/ a friend 4 dinner and some shit and he said he'd call me when he got outta work... that woulda been around 4 or 5. oh well. i was just super horny (did i just say that??!!) and looking forward 2 seeing him. he always makes me laugh.
fuckface. why isn't he calling??
grrrr

so that's that.
oh-- i almost 4got. i didn't cut my hair. just changed the blonde 2 orange it's so bright i love it!!!
i'll post a pic in my "stuff" folder.
it's so amish of me not 2 have an actual camera. i am gonna just splurdge and get one before christmas. any reccomendations? user friendly yet not a piece of shit, u know.