Sunday Jul 21, 2002

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up down up down. damn i am so on the emotional rollarcoaster ride from hell today.
what is up with me?

do you know what bothers me??

lesbians who swear up and down that they dont do the uhaul thing, or dont believe in instamatic relationships...but they really do?
one minute your chillin, then next their toothbrush is next to yours? how in the hell does that happen.

at the bar i work at they make jokes about how i am "terminally single" . matter of fact i think that i am the only bartender there that IS single.
yep. so yeah....basically im single...have been will be....i go through a remission that lasts about 2-3 weeks.

now dont get me wrong...ive been in a long term relationship...but it seems that since then...(and its been a while)
and i was talking to a friend earlier...

and we were talking about loneliness...and this is what i came up with:
that when you are literally alone ...yeah it can be lonely at times...but that lonliness is not even
ten percent of the lonliness you feel when you are with someone that you love and they are not with you...

hmmmm.?
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hep:
your reasoning re: men v. women is EXACTLY why I swore off dating girls. I couldn't take the drama anymore. I wouldn't want to date myself and I think I am less dramatic/insane/weird/nutty then most girls. I am not as attracted to boys, but that just means I am super picky. Eventually I find one I can be with.

If one has friends and family one is never alone. Its hard to not have the kind of love companionship of a lover. I agree.
possession09:
thank you, hep! i felt like in needed some back up or something for a minute. as much as it would be easier to date a boi, i cant. i love girls (your not a woman until your my great-grandmothers age). But since i cant seem to deal with woman i have been terminally single. \

and i only mind ever so often...i have wonderful friends, and a wonderful family....

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