possession09

i always find random things everywhere in my house. for instance, on my desk right now..
there is a corkscrew. im not sure how it got there, dont really feel like i need to know.
but there other things that i find..and i say WOW i dont know how it got there!! and im excited,
yes, so excited. and i think of all the amazingly wonderful things i can do with it.
so i decide...yes, im going to set this here..so i can use it for whatever.....yeah!
then. i forget that 1. i put it there 2. the purpose of putting it there.

and this is a continous silly cycle of mine.

when i was younger, i used to lose keys and id cards like crazy.
i have seen outgrown that phase.
then i went through the mail phase. you know bills and bullshite would accidently get
misplaced. lol how convient.
now its just silly stuff.

i want to wear my vinyl and corsets and go dance around people who dont give a shit about what the others are thinking, who are not part of some stupid lesbian or yehaw clic..
people that actually dont have to wear abercombie to feel as if they "fit in"
i want girlbois and boigirls.......black eyeliner everywhere....red stained lips.....
i need to surround myself with creativity and dancing and dark corners.....music that is so loud you can feel it
without the use of drugs....
(drooling) i need to go to detroit. nnnnnnnnnnow.