possession09

okay..

so i thought i could do it. i thought i could just leave well enough alone, but i cant. if anyone call tell me why the hell my body is ssssssssstrrrrrrreatched in my picture
and how to fix it, i will invite you over for oreos, or graham crakers, and milk. yum.
have you ever had one of those moments where the world just seems to crash on your shoulders. where you seem to be holding everything at bay....and you can tackle it all and then BAM>>.you feel like you
are about to have a breakdown and go crazy and all you can think about is running away and starting over again.
ugh.
you know i gotta give props to my girl tho. last nite, when this moment occurred...man, she really took charge.....im not even going to go into all the details, but
damn my girltoy rocks.
i dreampt this morning that my staff would not call me in for one day, my schoolwork was all done and all my bills were paid on time. and the chaotic house that i live in was clean....what kind
of drugs was i on?? lol. staff called me in, i had to fire someone, blahblahblah.
all shit that i could do without.

i think that i want to be a suicide girl. but i want to shave my head first....i cant imagine me really doing it as i dont particularly like showing lots of skin...im more for subtle sexuality....but it would be fun.
i would get to show off all my tattoos and piercings and stuff. something that i cant do very often anymore since i have this damn job.
as for my job
i never imagined being a manager would be that hard. shit, my consumers arent even the problem....its my damn staff. ugh.
noone wants to hear all this garbage, but oh fucking well.
working with mentally handicapped people is easy..you just need alot of patience. something that i do not have for stupid "normal" people.

my mind is racing a thousand miles a minute, and i must go do my damn homework....buy cat litter (before my cats kill me) clean my room, and let my girlfriend know how much i appreciate her love and support.

see you.
sorry for the rambling.