possession09

why is it so hard for me to walk away. im sure that given my situation, the
smartest, definitely SAFEST thing would be to RUN RUN RUN. yet, i am
drawn. hoping for another email, waiting for her to call. how silly it all is that i let
myself play this game.
a part of me believes that i am going to be completely torn and played by this
situation. another part of me hopes. that part of me remembers what it feels like to hold
her and laugh with her and dance with her.
is it so wrong to hope? even if that hope may not be completely healthy?
can you just walk away? where do you find that strength?
i surely love myself. i surely do not intentionally want to have my heart
broken.

but i cant help but hope. in a world of fairy tales and dreams...
how can i not hope.