possession09

ahh...inaccessablility...
yes..i think everyone in is drawn to that. well, not everyone, but anyone
who is up for a challenge....or anyone who refuses to believe
that you cant have anything you want.
but i know. i know that deep down inside i can emulate and be and
have everything that i trully want. whether or not i choose to put forth the effort
to achieve that is completely up to me.
no i do not think that the reason is because she is inaccessable.
i think my attraction to her is rather a genuine experience of finally meeting someone
(after a 3 year hiatus) that can get my attention and keep it for healthy positive reasons.

chances are i will only be a small grain of sand in her life, next week, next month, she may have already
forgotten about me. and thats okay. why? she helped me remember.

she helped me remember what i trully wanted, before i became jaded from a very intense relationship that ended
very emotionally scarring for me. she helped me remember what i really trully want from someone, and what i want to give to someone.
without the pain, without the insecurities, without the drama.
i remember now.
so thanks from the grain of sand.
maybe one day ill let her know.

ade