so much to my satisfaction, i let go of work drama, dealt with my fish.
although: my fish is having ups and downs....of course he wants to live..so perhaps he will will it. I mean shit..if you were an itty bitty fish in a 35 gallon tank that got feed twice a day on time, wouldnt you be happy?
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although: my fish is having ups and downs....of course he wants to live..so perhaps he will will it. I mean shit..if you were an itty bitty fish in a 35 gallon tank that got feed twice a day on time, wouldnt you be happy?
(not to mention he checks out...
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blah. i have this tendency to overwhelm myself with things, ideas, issues all at one time.
countless times do i have to remind myself..take one thing at one time.
thats how i felt today. but now. i am as chill as im going to get, i suppose.
i feel shitty cause one of my plants is dying and also my favorite fish.
fuck you if...
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countless times do i have to remind myself..take one thing at one time.
thats how i felt today. but now. i am as chill as im going to get, i suppose.
i feel shitty cause one of my plants is dying and also my favorite fish.
fuck you if...
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g_felix:
Hey possession09,
I've been known to do the same thing, from time to time. It's hard to learn that you cannot eat the whole meal at once, you have to take bites.
Professor De'La Paz once said: "If you don't know how to solve a problem, do any part of the problem that you do know how to do, and then look at the problem again."
No one should make fun of you. If they do, they are shortsighted. Our ecosystem depends on everything. Everything can feel pain. If it lives and grows, it can wither and die.
I found a praying mantis waking across a hot gas station parking lot this summer. I picked it up and carried to the side and put it on a bush. Before you pat my back, I must confess that if I find a spider crawling on me...Whammo!
I agree with you on the R word. Some people just don't know though, you know? Ignorance I can forgive, Stupidity is another matter.
I've been known to do the same thing, from time to time. It's hard to learn that you cannot eat the whole meal at once, you have to take bites.
Professor De'La Paz once said: "If you don't know how to solve a problem, do any part of the problem that you do know how to do, and then look at the problem again."
No one should make fun of you. If they do, they are shortsighted. Our ecosystem depends on everything. Everything can feel pain. If it lives and grows, it can wither and die.
I found a praying mantis waking across a hot gas station parking lot this summer. I picked it up and carried to the side and put it on a bush. Before you pat my back, I must confess that if I find a spider crawling on me...Whammo!
I agree with you on the R word. Some people just don't know though, you know? Ignorance I can forgive, Stupidity is another matter.
g_felix:
Hey possession09,
"Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Let the day's own trouble be sufficient for the day."
If wishes were horses...
"Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Let the day's own trouble be sufficient for the day."
If wishes were horses...
so........
i stopped writing in here because noone was EVER writing me back. so then i check it and lo and behold...people like me!!
hahah...well, maybe not like me, but they have written. and thats cool. maybe ill start checking this thing more often.
thanks everyone.
so ive been up for 34 hours straight due to a work crisis......but now i dont want to sleep...
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i stopped writing in here because noone was EVER writing me back. so then i check it and lo and behold...people like me!!
hahah...well, maybe not like me, but they have written. and thats cool. maybe ill start checking this thing more often.
thanks everyone.
so ive been up for 34 hours straight due to a work crisis......but now i dont want to sleep...
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morgan:
Aren't happy birthdays fun? So how WAS your b-day?
g_felix:
Hey possession09,
Just checking to see if you had entered a new journal entry!
Hope you got some much needed rest.
Take care!
Just checking to see if you had entered a new journal entry!
Hope you got some much needed rest.
Take care!
lalalalalala....
still cant get my new pic up, dont have that much energy nor time to waste on trying to get it up. maybe one day ill be a suicide girl
then i wont have to do the picture thing myself. i thought about it....but i dont know if i could get all naked in front of a camera, and then to thousands of people....
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still cant get my new pic up, dont have that much energy nor time to waste on trying to get it up. maybe one day ill be a suicide girl
then i wont have to do the picture thing myself. i thought about it....but i dont know if i could get all naked in front of a camera, and then to thousands of people....
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g_felix:
Hey possession09,
Happy Birthday! *said with the same emphasis as Frosty the Snowman*
Happy Birthday! *said with the same emphasis as Frosty the Snowman*
inkvisitor:
ahhhh craaaap! well, happy belated birthday :-D
i havent written in here in forever, because i really dont think that it matters..
but i am putting up a new pic of me...i found it one a disk.
i look a little different, but not much..my hair is platinum now, and it looks like pinks..or maybe her hair looks like
mine, since ive had that haircut for forever.
life is going...im hanging on...
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but i am putting up a new pic of me...i found it one a disk.
i look a little different, but not much..my hair is platinum now, and it looks like pinks..or maybe her hair looks like
mine, since ive had that haircut for forever.
life is going...im hanging on...
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possession09:
okay so fuck the new picture cause it doesnt want to go up..so i guess it doesnt matter anyways...no one looks..ha.
g_felix:
Hey possession09,
Hope you are doing ok. If it helps you to get things out, then it does matter.
Try to get the pic up on your profile! When you do, tell me how. I can get the size to 235X175 but I always end up with 121K. What's up with that, hmmm?
Don't knock dental floss. Wrap it around both index fingers and tug hard. Your skin will give before the floss. Tough stuff! :-)
Your balance is off...full time fun, a bit of job, and a bit of school. Ahhh, that's better!
Hope you are doing ok. If it helps you to get things out, then it does matter.
Try to get the pic up on your profile! When you do, tell me how. I can get the size to 235X175 but I always end up with 121K. What's up with that, hmmm?
Don't knock dental floss. Wrap it around both index fingers and tug hard. Your skin will give before the floss. Tough stuff! :-)
Your balance is off...full time fun, a bit of job, and a bit of school. Ahhh, that's better!
nobody ever reads this. so why am i writing.
oh well.
oh well.
maxx:
I don't know. I guess that's a question you'll have to figure out for yourself. It sounds like one of those deep "why am I here?" type questions that are best left alone.
But that's just one man's opinion.
But that's just one man's opinion.
so i havent written in forever. im in one of those holes again...damnit.
thats life isnt it? you start sailing smoothly along, enjoying the view, the weather..the taste of peace.
and then....
there is always that and then in my life. it is not something that comes to me purposely..rather it seems that the further i try to escape the and thens, the more they...
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thats life isnt it? you start sailing smoothly along, enjoying the view, the weather..the taste of peace.
and then....
there is always that and then in my life. it is not something that comes to me purposely..rather it seems that the further i try to escape the and thens, the more they...
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ugh.
blah.
blah.
up down up down. damn i am so on the emotional rollarcoaster ride from hell today.
what is up with me?
do you know what bothers me??
lesbians who swear up and down that they dont do the uhaul thing, or dont believe in instamatic relationships...but they really do?
one minute your chillin, then next their toothbrush is next to yours? how in the hell...
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what is up with me?
do you know what bothers me??
lesbians who swear up and down that they dont do the uhaul thing, or dont believe in instamatic relationships...but they really do?
one minute your chillin, then next their toothbrush is next to yours? how in the hell...
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hep:
your reasoning re: men v. women is EXACTLY why I swore off dating girls. I couldn't take the drama anymore. I wouldn't want to date myself and I think I am less dramatic/insane/weird/nutty then most girls. I am not as attracted to boys, but that just means I am super picky. Eventually I find one I can be with.
If one has friends and family one is never alone. Its hard to not have the kind of love companionship of a lover. I agree.
If one has friends and family one is never alone. Its hard to not have the kind of love companionship of a lover. I agree.
possession09:
thank you, hep! i felt like in needed some back up or something for a minute. as much as it would be easier to date a boi, i cant. i love girls (your not a woman until your my great-grandmothers age). But since i cant seem to deal with woman i have been terminally single. \
and i only mind ever so often...i have wonderful friends, and a wonderful family....
and i only mind ever so often...i have wonderful friends, and a wonderful family....
so.
last nite, my best friend and i went out for the first time in an EXTREMELY LONG time. you see, she has a girlfriend now, and her girlie pretty much consumes all of her time.
thats fine. its funny because at the bar that i work at, everyone just looks at me as if im terminally single. i have watched all my friends go...
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last nite, my best friend and i went out for the first time in an EXTREMELY LONG time. you see, she has a girlfriend now, and her girlie pretty much consumes all of her time.
thats fine. its funny because at the bar that i work at, everyone just looks at me as if im terminally single. i have watched all my friends go...
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grrrr..
why does it seem that people have a tendency too always want the unattainable. or maybe it isnt everybody, maybe its just me. who knows. i often sit and wonder if my emotions are as erratic and chaotic as others...who would i even want to compare too, though.
and how does one know wheter or not to trust ones instincts?
questions, questions...a nite for...
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why does it seem that people have a tendency too always want the unattainable. or maybe it isnt everybody, maybe its just me. who knows. i often sit and wonder if my emotions are as erratic and chaotic as others...who would i even want to compare too, though.
and how does one know wheter or not to trust ones instincts?
questions, questions...a nite for...
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ho hum. thats how i feel today. im not sure if its because im pretty tired, or just because im pretty tired. the difference?? there is that physical tired, the lack of sleep over-worked sort of drowsy tired...the one that comes after you have your 1st giddy spell, in between your 2nd giddy spell. yeah that one. or it could be the tired that comes...
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I hope your fish pulls through. Even if s/he does pass on to the great lake in the sky, s/he has had a wonderful home.
When you went out with friends for dinner, please tell me you did not have fish or seafood....
Probably not the best way to cheer up your fish! :-)
Stand strong. Don't become calloused yourself. People just need an example to learn from. You are doing good!