poptart_rock

so i'm feeling quite depressed/distressed/and fucking hopeless. today we made the decision to split and writing that email was really hard for me to do. i felt an overwhelming sense of hopelessness for the future. all the thoughts of people berating my decision to stick with my current job kept swirling in my head intermixed with thoughts that i have no health insurance. and to add to that, i wont' get to lay my head with bijou for a long time, especially if i go out to visit him. i fucking hate that shit and he knows it but it doesn't bother him. he lives at home and his parents are way too hard up to let us even stay in the same room together. for fuck's sake, we are 22 years old! i'm not a fucking child. they know we fuck. his mom even found a condom wrapper on the floor and threw it away for us. (my god that was so damn embarassing!). it just really iritates me. to no end. so i dont like to visit that much.

but i'm keeping my head up. meeting new and fun people-yes you phoenix hope you are having fun in ohio. (i just texted you!). and the most exciting news is i just met this cute girlie. we have yet to meet, but i just called her today and she is delightful! she's funny and cute and i can't wait to meet up with her next week. i just don't know how long i can wait....

bert's taking me out for sushi and sake tomorrow night. my first time! i'm a little nervous about eating raw fish, but i got a tip that i might like shrimp tempura. it's crunchy.

so how is everyone else? i hope people are having a better time than i am. and i can't wait to upload a different pic with my new purple hair. i'm such a cutie! damn sg and their uploading restrictions.

so i want to meet more SG boston people. there are so many shows coming in the next month or so, and i recently lost my show buddy. but i'm entertaining replacements.

i need a place to live! but for cheap. any ideas????