poppystrike

I dyed my hair white blonde today.



And now i'm going to see my Grandma. Might do some more knitting. Toodle pip xXx



Didn't do any knitting. We watched Charmed and Strictly Dance Fever. The latter reminded me of how much I dislike Graham Norton. His only joke is "look at me, i'm so gay and smutty". Haha. Yes overt gayness stopped being funny in the early 90's. In fact, i'm not sure it was ever funny.

My favourite thing is spontanaety, and as much as I endeavour to and revel in providing others with it, no-one ever does it for me. Do I attract the non-spontaneous? I can smell 'suprises' a mile off.

So i'm up here again feeling small and encased in cotton. And very clean. I always find it bizzarre how people can be the centre of your world for a time, and then they go and its not dramatic, just gradual. And it all comes down to you again.

Just you. All alone. I wonder why I bothered to dye my hair when no-one sees it xXx

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THIS IS SUNDAY:

I had the most distressing dream about the girl that broke my heart last night. It was fucking horrible. It was similar to what actually happened, except that everyone knew about it and sided with her. I woke feeling sick and very small. In order to forget about it I have been adoring this song...

In my dreams, I can see us in a tight embrace
Doin all the things that we never really did.
I think I'm in love with you.
Must we go run through our lives with our eyes closed
To the loving happiness that we can share?
I think I'm in love with you and your friend.
Honest I do, I can't see you and me and her without each other.
And I hope you feel the same way too (you and me and her).
I spend all my time on the telephone line
Tryin to say it just right this time.
Something that could change your mind.
I know this is love and the feeling fair
Though I whisper somethin so sincere
Exactly what you want to hear.
Now you know the things that I say when I'm swimming
Through the flood of all my desire can be so unclear.
But I know I'm in love with you.
In my dreams I still see us in a tight embrace
In spite of all the things people say when they stare.
That's how I know I'm in love with you and your friend
Honest I do, I can't see you and me and her without each other.
And I hope you feel the same way too (you and me and her).
In spend all my time on the telephone line
Tryin to say it just right this time.
Something that could change your mind.
I know this is love and the feeling fair
Through I whisper something so sincere
Exactly what you want to hear.
Honest I do, I can't see you and me and her without each other.
And I hope you feel the same way too.
I think I'm in love with (you and me and her)
I hope you feel the same way too.
I think I'm in love with (you and me and her)
I hope you feel the same way too.