poppysprite

I'm trying to stay happy and optimistic.

I received a certified letter from my gyno doctor who wants to see me again regarding some tests. I hope it's nothing. I cried and started to think, oh know, I've got cancer now! But I'm probably just going overboard here. I'm calling them on Monday to find out what the deal is.

Luckily, I also have a physical on Wednesday. I hope there is nothing wrong with me. I'm probably fine. I'm not sure why in the back of my head I have this weird death wish. Like sometimes I wish I wasnt here. It must be a sign of depression or something. It's just lately, I feel like I'm going no where, I hate my deadend job, I'm kind of in debt, I have a stupid dog that pisses and craps everytime we leave him in the crate when we go somewhere (he'll destroy the door and carpet if we don't), and I"ve been sick lately, and kind of broke, and lonely because I don't like atlanta, i feel sorry for myself, and. . .

this is turning out to be a real crying session isn't it? I'm making an appointment to see a therapist on monday and calling my gyno doctor up. I'm going to be okay. I'm going to learn Chinese, Japanese, and Korean, and one day I will be sucessful!