poordelia

weird night last night. my friend i was fighting with called me up and we talked for a long time...realized we'd had a lot of miscommunications, and he apologized...so now we're friends again, and that feels nice.

i'm so tired...i just worked an extra-long shift at work. nothing but women with out-of-control screaming kids, argh. >_<

i'm looking for a treadmill right now...maybe i could find one cheap in the classifieds. i'd like to see if i could save up for some boob implants, but after looking at before/after pictures online, going from a b to a d or dd doesn't seem to be that big of a differencr. :/ kind of disappointing.

...pretty much everything on this site makes me feel so shitty about myself. i don't know why i'm still a member, other than the nice people i've met. i have such a low ego and self-esteem, it's like begging for torment. like an alcoholic going to a bar, or a pill-head in a pharmacy...it just invites self-loathing.
not good.