Not sure anyone will read this, but don't care (I am mainly using this for venting).
My life has been very complicated as of late. Coming to terms with a lot of things in my life that have been making me very unhappy. First, I am moving back home to Riverside. Living with my band mates is great and all, but there are certain parts of their lifestyles that I would like to separate from for a while, and it would be nice to be able to sit down and write a song without distraction. I am still playing in the band and all, I just need to have some time for me. Also, I am going to start recording bands again, I miss doing that, and it will help me get to the place I want to be which is playing in the band, and in my off time, recording and producing other bands.
Second, apparently she (the ex) has already moved on. Although I am relieved not to argue all the time, it just kind of shows me where I ranked in her life anyway.
I had a female friend tell me the other day, " I can see that you want so much to be loved".
She is right, I do. It was with that I realized, I hardly have any love for myself anymore. I really need to re-center my life alone, and only then make room for someone else.
I feel good about the decisions I have made, and have confidence that my life will turn around.
My band is about a week away from possibly signing to a label as well, so I have to keep my head up that things will pan out.
Thank you to anyone who spent the time to read this.
even if you didn't , you're still ok in my book.
-Kelly
PS. A Kiss Could Be Deadly (my Band) is opening for the English Beat and the Plimsouls tonight at The House Of Blues Anaheim, so if you got the money and time, come out.
"Mirror in the Bathroom!"
My life has been very complicated as of late. Coming to terms with a lot of things in my life that have been making me very unhappy. First, I am moving back home to Riverside. Living with my band mates is great and all, but there are certain parts of their lifestyles that I would like to separate from for a while, and it would be nice to be able to sit down and write a song without distraction. I am still playing in the band and all, I just need to have some time for me. Also, I am going to start recording bands again, I miss doing that, and it will help me get to the place I want to be which is playing in the band, and in my off time, recording and producing other bands.
Second, apparently she (the ex) has already moved on. Although I am relieved not to argue all the time, it just kind of shows me where I ranked in her life anyway.
I had a female friend tell me the other day, " I can see that you want so much to be loved".
She is right, I do. It was with that I realized, I hardly have any love for myself anymore. I really need to re-center my life alone, and only then make room for someone else.
I feel good about the decisions I have made, and have confidence that my life will turn around.
My band is about a week away from possibly signing to a label as well, so I have to keep my head up that things will pan out.
Thank you to anyone who spent the time to read this.
even if you didn't , you're still ok in my book.
-Kelly
PS. A Kiss Could Be Deadly (my Band) is opening for the English Beat and the Plimsouls tonight at The House Of Blues Anaheim, so if you got the money and time, come out.
"Mirror in the Bathroom!"
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