ive been an active kid these days i suppose (even though i kinda
slacked on my past two tests only scraping by with an 80 in
speech and an 82 in psych.)
things that are nice that happened to me recently:
1. 2nd place in the short story contest at the ridgeland
community college level
2. 2nd place in the poetry section same contest
3. i (hopefully) getting published in a california mag - ad
infinitum
4. im doing fine in school which for any of you who know me
personally its one hell of a feat to see me take six classes and
not freak out withdraw from half then fail two of them and
scrape by in one cause the teacher likes me and cant bear to see
me be a total loser. change is good.
5. ive successfully not had anything mind altering that im not
prescribed to like i decided to do jan 1. its good to have some
self control.
6. ive lost 47lbs since christmas. i stepped on a scale in a
friends bathroom and it read 302... three hundred and two
pounds. i was pretty not cool at all with that. then two weeks
later, my lady became my homey and i suddenly lost my
appetite, and being the opportunist that i am, i decided that id
change a few things about myself (note to self do laundry , clean
house ..again) like now i exercise... me, pony boy... i go to the
gym... im still kinda weirded out by the exposed penises in the
locker room. im a modest guy. but i also stopped eating as
much i joke about being anorexic (even though i simply eat
more powerbars than bread rice or starch...im on an adkins
slimfast southbeach lowcal diet of my own devising(sp?) but im
really pleased with myself its not been a cakewalk(im sooooo
sorry for that) but yeah im at a much healthier 255 and still
dropping.
why am i sharing this with you?
well i thought about it for the first time today really i did a nice
little inventory on my life and realized that im not doing so bad
anymore... hell, maybe im actually doing well, and i thought id
do a little back patting and surprise my friends who are typically
used to me being in some state of self-loathing or
underappreciation. so there it is im doin fine and i notice and am
pleased about it and want to share my moment with 95 of my
closest friends and nonentities. hope all is well with everyone
else.
slacked on my past two tests only scraping by with an 80 in
speech and an 82 in psych.)
things that are nice that happened to me recently:
1. 2nd place in the short story contest at the ridgeland
community college level
2. 2nd place in the poetry section same contest
3. i (hopefully) getting published in a california mag - ad
infinitum
4. im doing fine in school which for any of you who know me
personally its one hell of a feat to see me take six classes and
not freak out withdraw from half then fail two of them and
scrape by in one cause the teacher likes me and cant bear to see
me be a total loser. change is good.
5. ive successfully not had anything mind altering that im not
prescribed to like i decided to do jan 1. its good to have some
self control.
6. ive lost 47lbs since christmas. i stepped on a scale in a
friends bathroom and it read 302... three hundred and two
pounds. i was pretty not cool at all with that. then two weeks
later, my lady became my homey and i suddenly lost my
appetite, and being the opportunist that i am, i decided that id
change a few things about myself (note to self do laundry , clean
house ..again) like now i exercise... me, pony boy... i go to the
gym... im still kinda weirded out by the exposed penises in the
locker room. im a modest guy. but i also stopped eating as
much i joke about being anorexic (even though i simply eat
more powerbars than bread rice or starch...im on an adkins
slimfast southbeach lowcal diet of my own devising(sp?) but im
really pleased with myself its not been a cakewalk(im sooooo
sorry for that) but yeah im at a much healthier 255 and still
dropping.
why am i sharing this with you?
well i thought about it for the first time today really i did a nice
little inventory on my life and realized that im not doing so bad
anymore... hell, maybe im actually doing well, and i thought id
do a little back patting and surprise my friends who are typically
used to me being in some state of self-loathing or
underappreciation. so there it is im doin fine and i notice and am
pleased about it and want to share my moment with 95 of my
closest friends and nonentities. hope all is well with everyone
else.