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Todays Horoscopes:

Be really careful about judging others with whom you are in a relationship, Leo. There is some sort of deception afoot, and at times like these, it is all to easy to jump to a conclusion, more specifically, the wrong conclusion. There is a thread of compulsion running through your day's planets as well, which could mean a desire to overindulge or a desire to get back at someone for some perceived wrong they have done. It is really important to keep facts straight and resist the urge to throw caution to the wind.
Your fiery nature is peaking today, Leo, and this is going to affect your romantic affairs if you do not tone things down a notch. This is a time where whether you are single or attached, you know what you want and you just won't be happy unless you get it. You may even feel inclined to be aggressive and hot tempered now, particularly when it feels like you aren't getting your way. You can be impatient and behave in an impulsive, irritable way which makes you more prone to arguments during this period. Just be careful with the intensity of your emotions, nobody likes to be bull dozed, and doing so is going to do much more harm than good today.

Yup. Fiery impulsions are certainly afoot. But honestly whats the point of being careful what I say? My romantic affairs have already been affected and my dreams of salvaging them crushed.
The person I want to bulldoze doesn't seem to care about how he makes me feel, so why should I care about how I make him feel? If he reads it, his problem. There is no more arguing, it's over.
Oh ok fine. For the sake of not throwing out negative energy into the universe I deleted almost all of my previous posting. I suppose I should be better than throwing out my anger online anyway. There goes all my fun, leave it to a facebook horoscope to deflate my big rampaging bull parade balloon. But lets just half halt and soften, and say that I'm hurt, angry, broken hearted. I'm also strong, brave, and quite a lot more so than a lot of people you'll encounter. I'm amazing, and I know am. He may not think I'm worth trying for, but it doesn't matter, I have my own path to lead that was taking me away anyway. I gave in to that and I was relieved, and then I became depressed and fought against it. As mad and hurt as I am, I suppose one of us needed to put things back on track and end it. I'm ready to start my life back fresh again, to get what I want and need out of life. And to leave the rest of it behind, to try to do so without bitterness. I'm a Leo and I'm a true embodiment of the Leo personality. Nothing can hold us caged in for too long. Soon I'll see this in the same way that I see all of my past relationships. Stepping stones for the next stage of my life.

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And now I'm laughing at myself for going back over this and making little edits for readability. Nerd. I'm still heartbroken, obviously LOL. But you know what? I can laugh about it. I can roll with the punches. And I've got dates with friends lined up already. I had a great weekend, with the exception of being told I wasn't worth trying for. I went to a club for the first time in YEARS literally, and had a blast dancing with a bunch of lesbians and a gay guy ,who was pretty hot, and kept picking me up to dance on his shoulders, and dropped me, which was hilarious. there was a transvestite there too, who looked like like whats-his-name actor who played on X-files who played a tranny on Twin Peaks. Then I spent Saturday working at the tiger rescue (after 4 hours of sleep and no food lots of fun ), my trainer/friends daughters first birthday party (I am not overly fond of children, lets leave it at that). Horse show this morning 1st and 3rd place!! It was a fix a test and I had my ass kicked by the judge (2X), who was AMAZING and a really fantastic trainer and I'm so stoked that I got to work with her! I would love to be able to take some lessons with her someday. Then Tigers again this afternoon and I made girls night plans with one of the other volunteers who've I've become friends with and who I'm so jealous of for having recently broken up her HER boyfriend and is now living on her own for the first time ever and just adopted a puppy.

So. There. I have a world full of fantastic opportunities ahead of me, and no one to hold me back. I can't fucking wait!! And when the tears come, I'll remind myself of that.

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