ponie

Just the fact that I am typing yet again tells you what a long day I've had. And that there haven't been enough people on messenger or face book to chat with tonight. I am a bit calmer than I was earlier today, trying to breath and to remember to smile. I need to remember not to push things and back off. Sometimes taking a break is a good idea. It gives you time to think things over. Still thus far I've only come to one conclusion, one that may take some time to come to fulfillment but I am going to keep my fingers crossed and try to fight off the tears.

In the meantime tomorrow we start our clinic rotations at school. This semester is when we're supposed to prove our knowledge and our ability. Which makes me nervous as heck! I start on dentistry rotation and and have to induce my patient for anesthesia. It sounds quite exciting and frightening to say "my patient". My partner will do the first half of the prophylaxis while I monitor and chart and then we'll switch. I hope I'm ready for this. Wish me luck.

Thanks to the friends who have been so kind to put up with me through this weekend. Alone is not my strong point, I'm sure it isn't many peoples strong point. This weekend I'll get to head home and spend some more time with old friends, and do my best to let them distract me. I've even been invited to a party which should be a lot of fun, I don't party much and I think I could use it.

night <3