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Happy Mothers Day everybody. I hope everyone spent time with their families which did not make them one to shoot somebody. What am I saying, then how would you know they were your family?

Mine was alright for the most part. My dad pissed me off though. Id only gotten one grade so far: an A- in Employee Benefits. For some reason, I was expecting a kind word. What I got was the same thing Ive gotten ever since first grade. You didnt get an A+? Its not like hes malicious about it. It would probably be better if he was trying to be a jerk about it. The thing is that his inability to be proud of us (i.e. - myself and my brother and sisters) is just an automatic thing for him. Plus, you know, Im kind of a baby about the whole thing. Oh well. Hes a good guy.

Thanks for all of the kind words about my insane story ramblings from earlier. I think Ive got a clearer idea of the story I want to tell. (Not that Ill ever write it.) Here goes: the main charactergeez, I gotta name himAlex will do for now... is kinda modeled after my brother. He isnt an ex-Navy SEAL or a Ranger. Hes a normal guy with a love of the second amendment and martial arts. I guess the standard Batman thing happens to him. His son gets kidnapped and he turns vigilante to get him back. He gets his ass kicked, and then he dresses up in the urban commando gear. Alex gets his son back and he goes back out to do the whole crime fighting thing.

I dont know how subtle I can be, but I think Alex is doing all of this because of the rush. Hes outside of society, but he can justify his actions because hes partly effective. (Alex probably would go the whole Batman route and fight melee style, but he would carry a silenced glock with him.) Its not a big deal at first. Just a few after the second commercial news stories. Because of the kidnapping and a couple of other high profile cases, the police start coming after him.

A have one of these defining moments scene in my head, but its kind of clich. Somehow he gets trapped with one of the lead lieutenants after him. I think the LT decides to spontaneously check a lead, finds Alex, who lights up some homemade plastique trying to cover his escape. Alex thought the LT was clear, but he surprises him and they both get caught in a cave in. They are somewhere isolated, but eventually the LTs people will come looking for him. So, they are both conscious, but slightly wounded and trapped under some rubble. Nothing too serious. Alex tries a cant we all just get along kind of thing and tries to validate his reasons for going commando. The LT cant take it. He tells himsomething like this:

You dont get it. Their being wrong doesnt make you right. I bet the police, or the courts, or your congressman let you down. Im sorry. They all let me down too. They didnt fail us. Things dont work the way they should. Yeah, its fucked up. Its better than the alternative. Dont you get? Every fucking time you put on a mask and beat up a mugger, you walking away from the rule of law. And we left might makes right behind a long time ago. [Alex does a wave kind of thing and turns his head.] Hey! Listen! Back in high school, they taught me about this Greek King. He had to do a sacrifice to the gods to get his ships crew back home safely. His daughter gets chosen by a lottery, and he does it. So these bitches called the Furies come after him, cause thats their job: avenging murders for family members. In this case her mother. So the King gets a court together. The first one ever, as far as I know. Anyways, Apollos the judge, thats how high this thing goes. Dont you get it [Alex seems bored] Dont you ignore me fucker! You didnt want to listen to me, you should have never made a fucking explosive! So theres this court, and its almost exactly like ours. The jury casts votes and everything. Now, normally I would have forgotten all of this. Name five characters in Hamlet, right? This is why I remember. The King gets off because Apollo says his wife doesnt have standing to call the Furies. You see, he says she wasnt related to her own child. Women are only receptacles for mens seed. It would be like saying a pot is responsible for growing a plant. The way I see it, the very first court case was also the very first fucked up ruling. From its beginning, society has let us down. But even back then when people barely figured out that you couldnt eat rocks, we knew there was something wrong we didnt have words for. We knew the alternative is worse. Might doesnt make right, and you blew up part of a building and almost killed a cop, so shut the fuck up and wait for my guys to find us. [The LT turns his back on Alex]

All right, that sucked, but at least I got something out. Everybody says that if you want to write, youve got to write. I know that sounds like the dumbest thing you ever heard, but it makes sense when there is a white piece of paper in front of you. Thank you and good night.