Wednesday Dec 16, 2009

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NEW UPDATE

I went out of the aforementioned dinner with my counselor and the she wanted me to meet. T (we're calling this other person T) and I had some awkwardness at first, but I think we pushed each other in good ways. (Pervs.) I hope this isn't awful, but it's nice to be with someone who similar issues.

We actually made plans to do karaoke this weekend! Anytime I get to go out and make a fool of myself is AWESOME! That makes me so happy. I really needed that after the day I had. smile

I mean, all the awful stuff below is still there, but I got to smile for a little while. Sometimes that

(OLD) UPDATE

Old post below this stuff...

I'm starting the training process Friday. It will be six months long and I was told all of our current obligations can be done by my boss is his spare time. I have not been officially informed I will start. That will be done tomorrow at 3:00 PM. If I was not told unofficially, I would have less than 12 hours of notice.

I've gone beyond anger and now I'm just numb.

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OLD POST:

So much anger.

SPOILERS! (Click to view)

Some of you know I'm a part of a family business. I work for my father and uncles. My father is kinda okay, uncle 2 is a bit crazy, uncle 1 honestly needs to be on medication. Not a joke. He should honestly be medicated, but the highs are too good for him to accept that. Whatever.

So they want us to prepare to take over the company. Fine. So they want us to work in different parts of the company. Fine. So they want us to go over some areas we worked in before. Fine. They want this process to last SIX MONTHS.

I've worked from toilet scrubber to IT professional in this company over ten years, and others have worked DECADES, and they want us to check out for six consecutive months to jump through hoops.

Oh they say they have reasons, but what it boils down to is proving our love for them. They have built a work ethic that no human being can live up to. We go through these hoops, but there will be more on the other side. It's just bad from beginning to end. I was told today I'm going to start "maybe this Friday, I don't remember." I'm still going to be expected to do everything I normally do, just all of this too.

It's not like we had any warning. They talked about it in secret and have literally said "It's confidential" when asked. I was told I either participate, or I have no say in how the company is run, forever.

And it's not like my cousins are cool with this. Each one of them is pissed as I am. But because they were raised but such vicious bastards, they won't say any of it out loud. So when I do, they don't hear all the concern I have for their well being, they just conclude I'm lazy. That's not hyperbole. I brought some stuff up and was called lazy. Verbatim.

I never really wanted to do anything but work in this company, but now I don't know if I want to be around these people this time next year.

Full of hate.



So my counselor set this thing up for me tomorrow. She works with other people with Aspergers, and she said there is another woman who is at a similar place that I am. For a variety of reasons, she thinks we should meet, talk, practice things we've learned in counseling together, etc.

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The meeting my counselor set up is going to be at a midscale sushi bar.

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I think my counselor just set me up on a date.

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Okay, so the counselor is going to be there too, so it shouldn't be too weird, right?

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It's going to be like a blind date chaperoned by my mom, isn't it?

I'm so fucked.

QUESTION: How fucked am I?

EDIT

I mentioned this odd "blind date" undertone with my counselor. She laughed and laughed.

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Then said we're both adults and can do whatever we want in that respect. What?

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dryad:
You mean the town I want to move out of?
kav:
See, I knew you were awesome sauce. Pom, you are the bestesteststttt. Love you.

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