polygirlaz

He kissed me he actually kissed me . And Im not talking one of those peck kisses a full on kiss. This made me feel better . It has been almost three weeks since I had one from him and it gave me hope. Baby steps I tell myself.
Today we held each other for a while, made breakfast together and went to the gun...
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We spoke. Yeah I didnt cry. I guess what I am trying to say is if he is willing to work on things why am I pushing for things to be the same.We need to start new and I will just have to deal with the changes until we get closer. Time will heal us I know that now. Must stop talking to the ex...
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So I called him last night/text and told him how I feel. I am hoping we can talk some more today. I guess I am just tired of being on this emotional roller coaster of not knowing if he really wants to be with me or is just being a dick. I explained to him that if things were getting as bad as he said...
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Epic fail I text 4 times today. Better than my 20 to 30 but I still did it. Every day is better. I dont cry as much and I find myself not wanting to constently look at the phone. Now if I can just beat the hubby at Mortal Combat the world will be a much better place.
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Cheri

Things I have decided. He must say I love you first. I must make my own plans and not wait around the house for him. I will not text him unless he does it first. I will become my own person. Seperate from him and alive in my own way. I am tired of just being a part of someone , what happened to my...
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I have hope. Keep smiling I tell myself , keep your head up things will get better. Went to the boys house last night . Hung out for a while , watched the Vampire Diaries.He held me for a bit and was extra affectionate which was quite confusing. I kept wondering what kept him from kissing me or other things but I knew the truth....
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Please God take away this pain in my heart. These tears are just too much . I dont sleep all I think about is him . I want him to hold me and tell me he still wants to press his lips to mine. I need his caress so much I feel like I am empty. I will be going to his house tomorrow and...
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I am in man hater mode. Went to the boyfriends house today and he gave me the let us began an friends so we can work on our trust issues talk . Wtf. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr My stupid ass agreed cause I dont want to lose him . So Tuesday we are going to hang out. Now if I can just stop crying.

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Cheri

Finally finished my paper for class. Two more weeks I tell myself. This ought to make you giggle. Everytime I do work for this class I listen to the Contempory Christian Station on Pandora. Its a religous class you sillies. Anywho I heard this band and why I damn near fell over. Thought I would share it with you.

Kisses Cheri

Its the little things. Like this week . Bought some new clothes for work . That felt good. Snuggled with the boyfriend , helped him with laundry. That felt good. Had multiple orgasms even better. Started doing my own nails. Bonus self care. Learned how to hem my own pants. Less frustrated that I can never find pants in my height.
Woke up , loved...
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