polygirlaz

I've never been good at expressing my emotions. At times I bottle them up just waiting for that time when the pressure gets too much and I leak out from the top. When I am feeling especially vulnerable I push people away. Even if you ask me what is wrong I will probably tell you nothing. We both know this is bullshit. My Sir has always been able to see this about me. Others not so lucky. I am not asking for you to feel sorry for me. I do not want your pity. What I am asking for is simple. If you see me withdrawing please reel me back in. Lend out your hand or wrap your arms around me. I am a fragile being and I break easily but sometimes all I need is that little bit of water to grow again. Today is one of those days where all I can do is cry. Every time I try to stop it comes back again. What the fuck is wrong with me? Nothing a good bottle of scotch won't fix and that would be self medicating. I've done that before and that is not an option. Please allow me to heal.