Sometimes its the little things. Like laying to the person you love and having them kiss you goodnight. Going to the movies with them and their friends and playing DDR in the arcade. Knowing that they support you in your job even if you arent making shit right now. Today is was the daily spankings. Hes done it before pretty much every morning I bring him his meds, make sure he has been fed and then the spanking begins. He has me count them in my head as he goes along always asking at some point how many it was, attention to detail is very important he says. I agree. I agree because not only does it make me better but I look forward to these moments in my day where I am rewarded for being a good sub. Some do not understand how someone could let another person dominate them . It is not for everyone and I do not expect you to understand but here is what I get out of it. I have always been a person that is in control . I manage my finaces with a fine tooth comb. I am completely crazy about my homework and beat myself up when I fail. My house must be organized to a degree , clutter is not acceptable. Every day I straighten the house and make the bed. It is what keeps me sane. Having someone dominate me lets me hand over control. I no longer have the option of ordering someone else around it is I that is taking orders and I like it. A part of me relaxes and I go to that happy place in my head. The place where I am 14 and picking honeysuckle off my grandmothers fence in Texas and I am in bliss. The hardest part I find about this lifestyle for me is not talking back . I hold my tounge and only answer when I am asked a question. There is a learning curve and Im doing my best to excel . Sir and I have been looking at collars . One day he will collar me and he would like to know what I like. That pleases me that my opinion counts. After a scene we discuss what went right and what went wrong , equally pleasing. Today is a good day and it can only get better.
Kisses
Cheri
Kisses
Cheri