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Hi porn kittens...

If today was my last day on this earth, I would have wanted you all to know how much I've grown fond of many of you, and some of you have become amazing friends. I thank you for that and I hope I've been a nice additon to your existence as well.

Why am I mushing out on you?

I'm on my way home from watching Arsenal at the Pub, and I inadvertently cut a guy off in a pickup truck (I thought he was giving me the space to go, Halsted is a busy street and I was at a two-way stop. I was wrong -- he honked his horn at me for a good 45-seconds. Then, at the stoplight under the viduct at 16th, he gets out of his truck, and proceeds to tap on my window with his GUN, yeling for my bitch ass to get out and face him like a woman. I apologized, told him I misread his slow start, I've got a family to go home to, etc. I didn't even touch his car! And, frankly, I felt no less of a woman for not getting out of the car -- I would have been shot if Idid because I would have lost my shit on the dumbass.

He finally gave up after cursing me a line of obscenities and got back in his truck, which was now holding up traffic.

I drove home numb. I should note that I am no pussy -- I've been arrested for mob action, I've clawed a few folks in my defense, I've even seen gunplay. Hell, I had a friend die in my arms after getting hit by a sniper from a rival gang. I've seen more murders than anyone should have to see... but I'll tell you, the site of that gun STILL scared the shit out of me.

It has made me assess what the fuck I'm doing with life, my husband, the Panda, Mamacita, homo, Bimbo, sister, Livi. They all got phone calls telling them how much I love them and to never forget that. So, I'm telling you porn kids that as well -- I love knowing you're here, checking out my life -- and some of you even sharing my life in awesome ways. Much love and hug the one closest to you tonight...