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polonium

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Who am I? Where am I?

Oct 20, 2015
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First let me start by letting everyone know how much I love you all! Yes, my photoset was removed. I was super disappointed with it's feedback and while I love to see me grow, it started to bum me out, so I asked for it to be removed. I'm still here though! I did stop shooting, hopefully one day that will change, but right now I'm just all over the place and need to focus on other things.

Two weeks ago I lost a man who meant the world to me, he was the first man to step up as a father to my oldest daughter and someone that really helped me love me. He got into some nasty shit and unfortunately it took his life. I went a bit insane after I was told I wasn't welcomed to his memorial. I was devastated and hated everyone for it.

To add on to my shitty times, two days later, my nieces were taken by the state. I started to feel like my life was falling to pieces and I was going to sink. I grabbed me some booze and drank myself stupid... Literally, I was being an asshole and an idiot towards the people I need.

I'm starting to get back to my not so normal, normal self. I just finished shooting with my bestie Michael from Ohhdreamer Photography! It can all be seen here:

Ohhdreamer Photography

Please check it out as well as my new modeling Facebook

Polonium on FB

I am selling prints of any and all of my photos from either of those pages!!

Alrighty, now where was I, oh yeah... I'm trying to be less insane but I'd love to get back to talking and hanging with you all. I will be at the BALTIMORE BLACKHEART BURLESQUE SHOW OCTOBER 22 as well as THE WEEKND CONCERT IN DC ON NOVEMBER 15 If anyone is going to either of these shows please let me know! I'd love to meet you!

bigslammy01:
Always loved your photos and your set was awesome!  Hope you'll post more sets in the future.
Oct 23, 2015

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