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The weather isn't so great here today. It's pretty cloudy and it keeps trying to rain. I used to love days like this. I'd walk around and just enjoy nature even if it was pouring down rain. Not sure what changed honestly. Now I seem to get depressed on these gloomy days and watch sad movies.

I just watched The Fault In Our Stars and bawled like a baby. I've seen it more times than I can count but it really hits home lately with everything going on with family. It hurts to watch someone fight so hard for their life, win the fight and then have to go through it all over again. It's such a common thing to see now, but it doesn't get any easier. Cancer. I hate that word.