pollythundercat

So....I got the pictures.
Beth and Ravi asked me about my swimming gear...well, i wore the same bikini i did last year, with a sorta like tankini top over it....although I took the top off to sunbathe....on my stomach. I felt like a prune, but it was the 2nd time I wore nothing but a bikini in public since I was 5. I refused to wear bikinis as a child because I thought everyone would laugh and stare at my plump belly. I reeeeaally want a monokini, hopefully I can find one that looks good and fits me and hides and shows all the right places.

So...Here...




That's my friend, Tati


There she is.....pretending she's being followed by paparazzi...


And that's me impersonating her.


My friend Andrea, me and Tati at this observatory that looks over the shore...


Left...


Right.


Biggest Brazilian flag EVER. Look at it in comparison with the buildings...




Taco night. It was so goddamn delicious.



A picture of the cemitery my mom used to be at. I only found out she was transferred once I got there. It's a vertical cemitery for the most part. Those are smaller graves, they transfer the skeletons to those after 5 years of being there. My mom's remainings got sent to another place. I asked my friends to go with me to this one...actually this part of the trip was harder than I thought. I used to live there, you know? All the familiar places, the few memories I still have of her, her brutal death, her funeral, the beach and places she used to take us....I held back from crying a few times, and I'm so glad I didn't do this alone. I didn't actually want to go to the other cemetery, too much for one day.

So I was supposed to go take that test on Tuesday, but I got really nervous and freaked out and had a mild panic attack and didn't go. I've been out of school for 7 years now, haven't done anything since. I felt so unprepared.
Today was the last day, and I went. It was so friggin hard, especially one of the 2 oral tests I had to do. I really have no idea if I passed or not. I'll find out tomorrow.

I really wish I had some Nutella or Lindt truffles or Milkyways or Almond Joys right now.
Nutella is the only one of those I can get here, but it's way too late. Lindt if I'm lucky, or at the airport. I would also have to be willing to lay a significant amount of bills for it.

I'm off from teaching this week. Doesn't mean much, can't really do anything. I'm broke as fuck.
Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
I'm trying really hard not to drop the ball, you know?

I still haven't heard from all the new people I added. I hope you speak up soon (I don't bite - that hard), cleaning time will arrive shortly.


♥,
Polly