I feel the need to update....but I don't want this to be another angry, depressed, desperate entry. So I don't know what to say, I don't wanna be a downer. Thank you for the concern on my last one. I was really pissed and disappointed with someone i deeply care about, but is so so selfish at times....no, she's not on SG, and maybe I'll talk about it some other time...
Family Guy makes me laugh out loud by myself. I think no other show has done that. Sure, there's funny shit, but even when stuff is hilarious, I kinda laugh on the inside. Not with Family Guy. I've been watching it all weekend.
Here's some complaining...I'll spoiler it in case you're not interested...No, I wont be mad at you....
SPOILERS! (Click to view)
I need to do laundry, I was gonna do it today but our water system is fucked up....so apparently I'll only be able to do it on tuesday. Crap. Im running out of everything to wear.
I need underwear something fierce. I might try and buy some bottoms tomorrow (on my best friend's credit card, since i have no money), but tops are impossible here.
Work is starting to pick up, which is good....but I have no idea when I'll get paid for what I've done so far, and it worries me. I'm by myself at home with 40 bucks for EVERYTHING until the 8th. I got more bills to pay this month too, and grandma won't be here to help me. I'm hoping to be halfway back on my feet by March....
I need my shrink back. More than ever. But I owe her money too.
I need to find a guy here who doesn't think I'm gross, and who can make me think men are not gross. I thought I looked pretty on friday night when i went out....but my friends are always the ones who get noticed....and I don't think the problem is really me......or i try not to. I havent felt this insecure in years though, and it really blows. I feel like a weak person, and I hate it. This shit shouldn't matter. It didn't matter before. I hate it that it's getting to me, which doesn't help. AAAAAARRRRGHHH!
So, I mentioned Friday. I got crazy drunk with a few of my friends at my favorite bar here....and we danced all night, and it was a friggin blast. I'm waiting for the pictures, but I have some....
This is what I looked like before drinking, dancing and sweating...
I love these people....
My best friend was trying to grab my boob.....
My drunk and gross-looking self and my friend Verena....
And since Ive posted these on PSW, I should post them here too bc this is one the best shirts EVER (together with the Kelly shirt I got from cinnamongurl!! wooot!), and some of these have become favorite pictures of myself....hopefully I won't lose my actual post to the pictures...read what I write, people!!! 
Last week I went to a VIP party at a Samba school....and it was amazing. I hate Carnaval - it's next week, but it kinda made wanna go and watch the parades....it was rad.
I guess this is not too bad of an entry....well, I'll stop before it gets bad.
I'm still not fully back, but I'm trying.
♥ yous,
Polly
You cannot seek the approval of others. If you can't just KNOW that you're hot how can you expect anyone else to see it. Come on. You are better than that. Fuck what everyone else says...maybe they are intimidated by your hotness. Just be happy with yourself and you will find that someone you're looking for. Seriously...just have fun.