"We can spend our lives letting the world tell us who we are. Sane or insane. saints or sex addicts. Heros or victims. Letting history tells us how good or bad we are.
Letting our past decide our future.
Or we can decide for ourselves.
And maybe it's our job to invent something better."

From Chuck Palahniuk's 'Choke'

I had something I had to swallow and deal with, but couldn't.
I asked God for enlightenment last night. That's really all I said - that was the only word I could think of.
I got my answer on my gmail account today.
And although it was not what I wanted, but everything happens for a reason, and I think I'll finally be able to let this go. Painful, but promising I guess.

Go wish _Jordan_ a happy birthday, We just got back from his party and it was awsome.

Jenn, my PIMPSTRESS. Thank you for being in my life, seriously. People might have been getting tired of reading about you, but the truth is you've been my rock, and your friendship means a huge deal to me.
Friends who don't know what's going on and meeting new cool people also make things better....it makes me forget, and it makes it easier to heal. Thanks to you also...

I'm gonna go now, still kinda sappy so pardon me.

♥

Polly


PS: My fucking laptop is not working. It won't connect to my network. I was on the phone with gateway for an hour and a half and they did shit for me. I don't know when it's gonna get fixed, but i'll work on it. I'll be able to see my stuff, but not as often...Keep e-mailing or commenting or calling or getting in touch somehow, k? Yeah. I'm PISSED.