Friday Dec 12, 2003

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I'm in such a rut. I need to do something with my next 3 weeks which will get it all out of my system before I go back to school in Jan. Sleeping late and veging out isn't nearly as gratifying as it once was. So many things to do that I've dogged for days and weeks now. I have been able to justify my laziness by at least working out and taking a steam every day for a while now but it's not satisfying enough. When I wake up with no endorphines to relax me, I feel unfullfilled and anxious. I'm becoming a stress case on account of my own inactivity and though it's helpfull to write about it, I should probably be out doing something, not staring at the smaller, more engrossing boobtube.
Getting a cheapo camera for everyday use, developing film, taking care of some business, haircut, textsbooks, etc..
And somehow I'm supposed to save money. shocked Least I can look forward to the SG meet tomorrow! Joy, hope the ppl aren't hurting! tongue
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pokes:
Well, I am skipping the SG meet to go up to Mt. Cypress and pull donuts in the parking lot with some friends. I don't know where this idea came from but I have been dying to have a snowball fight, and since my gf bailed on me mad , I don't care what I end up doing. It's a shame that I'm not more adventurous as I would have liked to have gone to the SG meet but, frankly, I'm sure all the cute Suicide Girls will end up sitting at one table, leaving me with a bunch of bandless drummers to make conversation with. Well maybe that's not a fair assesment and is more of a cop out but, none the less, I am going to go hang out on top of a mountain and drink imported Danish blackcurrant vodka because I'm too unenergetic to show up and yap with strangers, with whom I share nothing in common but a website. I already regret it but, to make up my mind, I decided to go on SG and check who would be coming to the Vancouver meet, under the condition that if I found so much as a single person I knew from the boards or chatroom then I would go. unfortunately I found no one and, rather, noticed myself to be the youngest of those who would be attending. Anyways, it only took the suggestion of a snowball fight followed by the realization I could go tobogananing/sledding, once up there, for me to quickly change my mind and make plans to visit the mountain. I blame my gf for not coming through and keeping me company especially since she told me, straight up, that she would rather go to her friend's party. If I had had the chance to think about it and not to play the hurt child, I might have gone with her to the party but, as is, I told her, rather sulkingly, that I wuold rather go to the meet by myself then to the party with her. Now my spite comes back to haunt me... cuz true may it be that I am going to have a blast on top of the mountain, it's also true that I will end up cold and without plans well before her party ends. Ah pride!
nonsequitur:
skip a sg meeting?! crazyness!

we dont even have get togethers where i live frown

and i'll be more open to sappiness once disney releases it's first gay/lesbian fairytale!

i want to see tim burton's new movie, big fish.

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