pokes

So I attended my first day of class today. It's nice to know, despite my belief in the seeming hideousness of my slowly receding hairline, that the attractive women in my classes still choose to sit next to me. I find it comforting to know the opposite sex still finds me to be attractive whether or not I view myself as such. Also, I was assured a place off of the waiting list in the class i desire to be in the most by my prof who rather likes me and as you can guess, I'm obviously contentented as such. They only offer the class every other term and the section always fills up immediately so I'm elated to have gotten into my Anthropology of Mythology class. To me, it's a real treat to be studying something with no practical application whatsoever; so often are my classes excercises in conformity. Other than that, not much else is new. Oh wait that's not actually true. You see....hmmm how to get into this without being melodramatic or self-pitying. Ok, long story short: One of my very best friends came back into town after being at law school at NYU all year. Despite having been here since the 23rd he didn't contact me until two days ago when he informed me he was up in Whistler. Granted, he is spending time with his girlfriend. However, regardless of that fact, I can't but help but feel abandoned. My friend was here for 2 weeks and he didn't call me until two days before he left, was unapologetic for not having contacted me ealier, and in the end, left without having seen me, though we were supposedly supposed to have done something the night before he left. Ultimately, I know this bodes poorly for our relationship. Usually I'm more than happy to drop someone as a friend if i feel they're not holding up their end of the friendship but this guy and I were best friends throughout the bulk of our adolescence and it's paining me to accept the fact that this spells the end for our friendship. Even when we were incommunicado I always regarded this guy as one of my best friends if not my best friend and accordingly, I'm seriosuly bumed to have him so blatantly disregard me. True may it be that ppl often neglect their friends when caught up in a relationship, and yes I've been guilty of that myself in the past, but even so, my friend knew full well how I would respond to finding out he'd only bothered to contact me in the most insincere, superficial sense and therefore i can't help but feel this gesture was intended to diminish the degree to which we are friends if not outright sour our friendship altogether. Being sold out sucks. Learn from my lesson: absence doesn't neccessarily make the heart grow fonder. On the contrary, if you're not lovers, it can have the exact opposite effect. Anyways, that's all for now. I began this entry feeling on top of the world and now I feel as small as can be. Be good to your friends who deserve it and express yourself to those with whom you have qualms.