poisonivy1221

I'm bored!!! I'm Irish and it is St Patty's day and I am sitting at home I hate that I never get to go out and celebrate!! It has been raining here for like 4 days...I like the rain but I hate having to go out and schlep around in it to go to work I am just happy no one in my house is shitting or puking anymore!! I need some excitement. I had so much fun getting out 2 weeks ago I feel like I am going through withdraws wanting more. I miss that shit so much. Sometimes I really wonder if I am cut out for this life I am living. I think about bolting a lot. I don't think I would actually do it but I daydream about it a lot. Ya know...where I would go, what I would do....who I would do haha. I dunno I guess I am just finding myself in a rut lately. And just to add to it one of my client's father died and two other's family members have cancer. I am starting to feel like the fucking reaper. It has been such a weird week. I think I am going to go blonde again....what do you guys think? Okay I am definately rambling now.