poisonivy1221

Hey guys! Thank you for the words of wisdom. I am really trying to muddle through this swamp of utter bullshit without wadders. Gonzoe, I wish that I could do that hate thing but with a child at least for a woman who actually has a brain that is not an option. I won't let our differences effect our child nor will I make the same ill fated mistakes that my parents did with me. What I have to do now is draw the line between being amicable and being a pushover, between being considerate of his feelings because I do love him and our child and getting duped because I didn't take the necessary percautions to protect myself. I am not one of "those" shady ass bitches that give women a bad name. I am not trying to take or keep him from his child or take any of his money....in fact I am the one making the sacrifices to ensure that at all costs he in no way feels that way. But I am SOOOOO scared that in doing so I am leaving myself vunerable to an ambush. I am being advised to seek a legal separation in order to "lock down" a few things but I am so afraid of how he is going to react that I don't know what to do. I am constantly living in fear of his anger and how he may lash out when it surfaces. Please understand that he is in NO way physically violent with me but he does have anger issues. I wish I could say that he was an awful person that treated me like shit but that is just not the case. He has always loved me and our child. In most respects he has been a wonderful husband and in all respects an amazing father. However, at this point I don't see myself being able to feel the same about him. It hurts and I am sad.