AHHHHH!! The eve of this holiday is upon us..and I'm more depressed than ever, well no not really depressed just sad, my daughter is with her father for her first christmas...wondering if I should try to continue on this site as trying to be a model..I want to more than anything but reccently I haven't seen any accepted with my body type..I'm just wondering if it was accepted just to get my hopes up..I dunno, I'll still always post pics just dunno if I'd try again even if my contract was up...trust me I aspire yet my asparations aren't enough compared to sweat...basically the effort...it's just hard, but I'm not whining, ANYTHING is hard...anything is a headache, but by no means am I waving the white flag yet...i mean I know what they're looking for just trying to still find a photographer that is interested in helping me rather than trying to fill his portfoilio..anyway hope you are having a merry christmas!! ALOHA! I'm out! 
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I have never spent a Christmas with my daughter, her mother never told me about her and I only got to know her for a few months before they moved out of state