poetik

My stomack hurts, and that's not cool at all.

I'm about to go in for my job evaluation in whic I'm geeting cut up by a boss who's paying me back for not kissing his ass. I've read the review. It's not good. but of course, we have to 'talk' about it, as though I'm too stupid to understand what he wrote...

Hope you all had a great Halloween and enough fun for you all and me. I'm beginning to notice moving to Connecticut has sucked all the fun out of my life. Which leads me to be an unhappy guy.... Like I need motivation to be down. Before I had no time coz I had 2 jobs, now I have all the time in the world and yet... Fuck it, life goes on.

I should just be honest with myself coz what I just wrote makes it clear. I feel cut off from everything because I am. shit. I could die right now and no one would notice, for all the contact I have with the world.

It seems to be in human nature to finds flaws with our condition. Can we ever be happy? if it's not one things it's another. Even the person who seems to have everything one could ever want has problems. But are they really problems? It's all relative.

Weird though, the way it's 70 degrees today, on the first of November....