sometimes i have these moments when i go completely inward. my body will tense up, my heart will skip a beat and start to pound, and all i want is for nothing and no one to talk to me or touch me. well, at least that is the emotion that is going thru me. i am silently screaming for everything and everyone to get away. but, in actuality, all i want is for someone to hold me, rub my back, and tell me everything will be ok. i hide this very well.
there is no telling when one of these "attacks" will come over me. i call them attacks because the emotion is so very heightened, i feel like it's crushing me. they've been hapening for as long as i can remember, always infrequent, always with no apparent reason. they happen when i'm with people or alone, when i'm happy and having fun, when i'm lying in bed about to go to sleep. i had one last night.
n each time it has happened, i have never gotten that embrace i have so desparately wanted.
there is no telling when one of these "attacks" will come over me. i call them attacks because the emotion is so very heightened, i feel like it's crushing me. they've been hapening for as long as i can remember, always infrequent, always with no apparent reason. they happen when i'm with people or alone, when i'm happy and having fun, when i'm lying in bed about to go to sleep. i had one last night.
n each time it has happened, i have never gotten that embrace i have so desparately wanted.
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ultraman:
it was good seeing you again...sexy pants & dimples! 
darke:
It's an anxiety attack, luv. Lexapro does wonders.