So....
First of all, I am proud to say that I am 30 DAYS SOBER!! Yay me! So why do I feel like shit??!?!?!?!
Well, let me break my first day out of rehab down and let you know what the fuck is going on...
So, I get out of rehab today and check in at ASAP (Army Substance Abuse Program) so I can get...
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First of all, I am proud to say that I am 30 DAYS SOBER!! Yay me! So why do I feel like shit??!?!?!?!
Well, let me break my first day out of rehab down and let you know what the fuck is going on...
So, I get out of rehab today and check in at ASAP (Army Substance Abuse Program) so I can get...
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suzika:
Why thank you hun <3
suzika:
And secondly, fucking congrats on being sober for 30 days! Go you. don't be so hard on yourself.... we all have our vices, least you're working on yours.
So...
I have two days and a wake up and I am outta here, don't get me wrong, I enjoyed the break from reality and needed the time to get myself back together. I can't believe I let my drinking get that much outta control, but this place is not for me, I need fresh air and some sunshine( don't get that much in WA)....
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I have two days and a wake up and I am outta here, don't get me wrong, I enjoyed the break from reality and needed the time to get myself back together. I can't believe I let my drinking get that much outta control, but this place is not for me, I need fresh air and some sunshine( don't get that much in WA)....
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luffy:
Thank you for your words! I totally agree, and I know things, no matter how tough they get, its going to make the future better, if you just stay positive and focused.
Its sad to see you go, but if you feel this place isn't for you, then you should find a place where you feel you belong, and can prosper. Its good that you have a plan of goals to attend to. I'm also in the process of starting to focus in on some goals as well.
I wish you all the best!
x
Its sad to see you go, but if you feel this place isn't for you, then you should find a place where you feel you belong, and can prosper. Its good that you have a plan of goals to attend to. I'm also in the process of starting to focus in on some goals as well.
I wish you all the best!
x
cleokat:
Haha, anime isn't really my style, but I do like to try it every now and then. Thank you so much. I appreciate it. Haha when I'm stoned, I can never remember that I wanted to draw.
poeticblack:
When I'm baked I get trapped inside my thoughts which gives me time to break down and show them to those who can understand my insanity. My poetry is me, your art is you. Your art has every ounce of your creativity.
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evangelin:
Someone just turned me onto this
You know - the air is tense and we are all becoming something unlike we've ever known but perhaps dreamed. It is not and has not been an easy transition for most of us, we have to fall apart before we can be put together. You made a conscious decision to do you, sober! Do not let the outside noise interfere with that journey because as much as escape seems like the best option, looking at yourself in the mirror and becoming the person you want to be ....Well for me at least it is the only option and the only reason to bear the trials of human existence. Ask the questions and surely the answers will seek you!
You know - the air is tense and we are all becoming something unlike we've ever known but perhaps dreamed. It is not and has not been an easy transition for most of us, we have to fall apart before we can be put together. You made a conscious decision to do you, sober! Do not let the outside noise interfere with that journey because as much as escape seems like the best option, looking at yourself in the mirror and becoming the person you want to be ....Well for me at least it is the only option and the only reason to bear the trials of human existence. Ask the questions and surely the answers will seek you!
poeticblack:
I thank you for the support and words of wisdom. It's been a ling struggle these past few years, dealing with the ex, now filing the police report and all Tue paperwork for what she did to the apartment. I never thought it would come to this, I let myself and what I stood for go because of her and it wound me up in detox/rehab. I am liking the sober me though, I even started writing again, I haven't written in soo long and since she has thrown away all of my things, I guess I have restart my book of thoughts all over again. I have a few more days untili get out and then the real challenge comes, surviving the world outside of these walls. Tacoma as a whole is a crazy place and Seattle isn't that much better. I have to get all new people to hang with cause most of the company I kept were junkies. We will see though, anyway, didnt mean to vent, but thank youfor reading and listening.
Had to sneak my phone out of the safe....
18 more days in detox hopefully, be back soon I hope.
18 more days in detox hopefully, be back soon I hope.
mssasha:
Feel better.
poeticblack:
Thank you and welcome back, miss reading your thoughts.
Well, my work week ends tomorrow sending me into a 4-day weekend. Don't have to to be back at work until Tuesday, Amen. Much, much needed relaxation and chill time. Going to Spokane this weekend to chill with some newly made friends and old buddies. With everything going on I am soo fucking stoked to go on this road trip. Gotta get up early and...
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cleokat:
Haha for sure. I wish I could get back at the guy who kicked a dent in my car door a few years back.
poeticblack:
Hell yeah,
Put a dent in the side of his head, lol
Put a dent in the side of his head, lol
So, just got home from my adopted family's house, lol they are a sweet bunch, I got much love for them folks. Had to hill out and get my kind right, got too much shit stacking up and not enough places to hide the bodies. It bothers me that people tend to wanna call themselves "grown" yet actually do not know what being grown means....
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_moonbeam_:
No real reason, just seemed right...
I heard this song a while back, but never really paid attention to the lyrics until I realized what the hell was going on in my life. Then I realized that this song describes my life as it shows to be....
[YOUTUBE]http://youtu.be/o9PuAm7d0PA[/YOUTUBE]
[YOUTUBE]http://youtu.be/o9PuAm7d0PA[/YOUTUBE]
_moonbeam_:
Thank you ... It played over the radio on my drive home, and seemed to nicely sum up some of my feelings at the moment...