poemelyric

You know what I've discovered? That life sucks if you can't be happy, if you're not being your true self. I notice so many people that I talk to wish they could be "more like me", whatever that means. Walking around with multicolored hair, tattooed to the nines, piercings that would set off a metal detector at an airport, four inch platform shoes, just being honest about who they are. Yes, I admit I'm a freak. I do all of the above in a professional office and nobody says anything to me because "she's just being Karen". But I'm good at what I do so I can get away with it but I know a lot of people that are good at what they do and they're like "I'm a freak on the weekend". We spend so many hours of our lives at work, why can't we be ourselves when we're there? I know the whole thing about professionalism and maintaining a "good work image", the whole "If you want to look that way, get a job at a circus" thing but haven't things changed just a little?

I like myself just the way I am. I'm very friendly and people love to talk to me about things that they wouldn't talk to their "outside friends" about. I give everyone a chance because I don't often get that in return and I'm cool with everyone (just as long as you don't gossip, I'm not into that, no matter how trivial the news is). Maybe that's just part of the territory of being "odd". A lot of people assume that I'm just a punk off the street and they are surprized when they find out that i'm well educated and can hold a conversation. As a matter of fact, I just got a new department head. When she first came in, she wouldn't even look at me. Now she's always telling me that I have the best laugh in the department. She asks me my opinions on stuff. Not that i'm a kiss ass but I'm honest. I think that means more to people than even I realized. Most people in the workplace are two-faced... I think that being who I am makes people feel more at ease, knowing that everything is confidential and that nobody keeps a secret better than someone who's confident enough with themselves to do the things that most people are afraid to do.

Why am I ranting? I don't know... I just keep running into people at work that want to burst loose but are afraid too. I mean, people who want to do little things like dye their hair black but are afraid of what people will say. Dying your hair is so miniscule, why even stress it? It's all so stupid. Who do I want to be like? Me! The freak that comes into work and parks her guitar under her cube cause she's got a guitar lesson after work. The one who has nothing better to do on break than read Henry Rollins books and surfs the guitarcenter website. I'm just me, through and through....

My advice, don't wonder. BE!

I got to go... I'm training two people tomorrow and I've been working overtime to feed my new guitar fetish. Only 2 more days of 11 hour work days! Woo Hoo!