poeloki

Here I am at butt fuck fuck, early, almost dawn again. I am feeling watched, regulated, and reviewed and I havn't left my room all day. These sites are for entertainment right? it doesn't have to be real, you are in controll of what side of you people see, who you want to be, however honest or not that you want. But what happens when someone spoils the game, reveals the truths, changes the stakes, maybe not to the world but to you. All of a sudden everything has changed. While the image you have created for yourself may not be true its babis was, it is an extention or an exaggeration of yourself, so when you change so slightly it becomes huge in your fantasy world. That is what has happened to me. And while it is ludicris to confess things to "the world" such as is on the internet, you still feel a sense of safety. This is my only "untainted" site yet. However, if my little fantasy here becomes tainted it will forever dissapear back into the recesses of my mind, and I will start anew, maybe.