poedelaire

This will be a rant.

Right now my head feels like a . Hard and impenetrable.

It seems that everything in my life is teetering on the edge. That should be exciting, but instead I'm bone weary. I have no fucking energy, and no desire to fight. And I have to. My whole life needs a rocket up its jacksy.

I sold out my dream for a silly cow who thought the whole point of being an adult is to conform to the nines (makes spazz face). I don't know who is the bigger idiot.

Yesterday my son said, "Go on then, fucking hit me!". I had to do a double take. Just what you always dream of hearing from your offspring. After 7 years of being smacked about by his cunting stepfather the timebomb is beginning to tick. At least last night he wanted to call the fucker and tell him what a wanker he is.

And today I find out my sister's marriage is over. I thought they were solid. I had to sit down. I still don't know what to think.

Her husband's a nice guy, a friend. I wonder if we'll still go to Motorhead gigs together (me, me, me).

I live with my Dad, I have no money and I just can't see any way of changing anything. Bollocks.

My head hurts.